Doing them tonight.
Today for the first time in a long time i pulled out my piano and played like i have never played before I sang like i had never sang before. Doing this made me so happy. I was so happy that i had actually wrote a song. I have not written a song since last September since i walked in on my brother trying to commit suicide. I forgot what it went like writing. But for the last couple of months i have not been happy and the same person I use to be. I use to be so loud and outgoing. I am just quite. I stopped smiling being happy. I hide everything inside. And never letting it out i started acting different starting doing stupid stuff i never thought i would do. I started pushing people away cause I didn’t want to show them i was breaking. I wasn’t me any I wasn’t the innocent little daddys girl i use to be. I wasn’t the same person. I never told people how i felt about them or if i had feeling for them. I haven’t been me in a long time. I AM SORRY I HAVEN’T BEEN THE REAL ME IN A LONG TIME It is going to take time until I am there.
I love yall
Who knows when ill be back and if i even do come back. I have not been in the right place for a couple of days. And the only time I am happy is when im not on here. This use to be fun to me. But its not any more and its only making me unhappy and putting thought in my head. That I dont want.
I Love all the People i have meet on here. And I will miss you while i am gone. I might stop in soon but not for a while. I love you all and thank you for the things you all have done in my life.